If I Only Knew Then What I Know Now...

Standing in front of my university’s library right now, and memories are rushing back.

I walked in and out of this place for the three and half years it took me to earn my Bachelor’s Degree in Film Studies in the School of Humanities here at the University of California Irvine.

I spent countless hours in this building, studying for tests in Statistics and Spanish, researching and writing my film term papers. I remember so clearly walking the paved circle of this campus... young, shy, bright, often anti-social, a bit insecure when it came to my status of social acceptance, yet confident about my academics, my skill for writing, and my knowledge of film theory and history.

This library was one of my safe havens... my main refuge away from the scary and awkward world of youth, college life, infatuation, fraternity boys with hormones on overdrive, and sorority girl drama and competition. It was exciting, terrifying, exhilarating, and dreadful, all at the same time.

All I can think right now is, if I only knew then what I know now...

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