Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep...

Looking out the window of my sister's guest bedroom tonight, the bedtime prayer I said as a child popped into my head: "Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep. If I should die before I wake, I pray to God my soul to take." I don't think I have recited that prayer, or even thought about it, for over 35 years; so I'm not sure why this view of the twinkling city lights brought it to mind.

Maybe it's because I traveled so often as a child & looked out the hotel room window at the lights of the city we were staying in before saying my prayers & going to bed... especially those of the original Las Vegas strip & the San Francisco skyline/Fisherman's Wharf, two of the cities we stayed in most often back in the 70's & 80's. Yet I also remember saying that prayer at home, kneeling by my bed next to my big sister's bed in the room we shared, & how a feeling of comfort washed over me after saying my prayers before laying my head down on the pillow.

I don't know if it was the meaning of the prayer itself or the ritual of saying it that made me feel so safe, loved & protected, wherever I was; but being here tonight, alone in this room in my big sister's home - while my kids sleep soundly with their cousin in his room - I feel that same feeling of warmth & security wrapping me up in the arms of my family. Knowing I belong to them, and they belong to me, I feel a deep sense of peace.

Although my childhood certainly wasn't wholly blissful, there were those moments at night, like tonight, when everything's so quiet, that all felt right with the world. I think it is in these times that we can better tune into the tranquility within our souls & appreciate all with which we have been blessed.

Unlike the night view from my home of a dark ocean, maybe it's these city lights that also bring me a more visceral & heightened awareness of humanity, the fragility of the human condition, how much unrest there still is out there, & how feeling these fleeting moments of safety & security is what gives us the strength & resolve to push forward in the challenging times & difficult moments.

Whatever the reasoning, I am grateful. And tired. Now I lay me down to sleep... 😴

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